Author Archives: happilyeverbonnie

I surrender and then I live

I —honest to God—- tried traditional marriage for 🚩🚩🚩🚩 (Four!) years… AskMe Anything. I spent 2018 to 2020 as a surrendered wife. I’m a certified coach in the ways of becoming a surrendered wife. How to act, all the rules. I broke myself apart to fill the shape of his container. It was a partContinue reading “I surrender and then I live”

Morphia Tells Me

Close your eyes, and see nothing but blackness Now see the blackness ripple little purple ripples coming out from the center  Like they are being vibrated by pulsating music Walk through the blackness at your feet  Find that the pool you are in is as deep as you’d like  It feels like whatever you’d likeContinue reading “Morphia Tells Me”

Through the Valleys – an introduction to my first book

“Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth, ‘You owe me.’ Look what happens with a love like that. It lights the whole sky.” Rumi perhaps or Hāfiz  I choke a little when I think of that day. The day of our wedding, I started out crying, worried you’d never beContinue reading “Through the Valleys – an introduction to my first book”

Cleaning My Brain and Space

The word I chose for 2021 was CLEAN. Here’s my reflection on how it went. I chose the word “CLEAN” because at that point in my journey I had been home for practically all of 2020 and I didn’t like all the negative feelings I had toward myself when I looked around my home. MyContinue reading “Cleaning My Brain and Space”

Love is a Verb, Practice Daily

Let me tell you a story you’ve already experienced…  You get into a relationship because you like this person, regardless of the specifics, there are things that attracted you to them, maybe those things aren’t present now, but they were at the time. Follow me for a second and visualize those things. Remember what itContinue reading “Love is a Verb, Practice Daily”

The Children Did Well Today; I am Grateful

Today was trying for me. The test of the mettle I’m made of kind of days. What will I do when I can’t find the key to the car to go pick up my kids. Will I turn on my loved ones and find someone else to blame? It’s clearly my own idiocy to blame.Continue reading “The Children Did Well Today; I am Grateful”

What to do when your husband explodes

A few of you have recently had experiences where your husband gets strangely aggressive quite suddenly and it’s scary and strange. I wanted to share that this seems to be a shared experience that’s happening at least partially on a collective level. I’m not sure exactly what the implications of that are, but I wantContinue reading “What to do when your husband explodes”

My Grandmother who Always Chose Control

This morning my mom came over and spoke of how lovely she was feeling with her new life here in California, free from all of “those people” she said with aversion. It reminded me of this piece I wrote over the summer that I’d figure I’d share. I asked her to sit down with meContinue reading “My Grandmother who Always Chose Control”